After all...

Four months are gone. Four months where I was thinking that I had made the biggest mistake, that I had thought you were the one. Four months are gone.

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Time changes.

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After all.. I found someone new inside of me... I did realise things. I realised you were just kiding on me during all these years searching a way to control every single part of me.

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That time is over.

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Even if time may be hard... I'll find a way to make it mine..Far away from you..

Dear Mr. President...

Aujourd'hui le 11 Septembre. Ce texte provient d'une chanson de Pink (Album: I'm not dead)

Je ne rajoute rien. Réfléchissez. :o)

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Dear Mr. President,

Come take a walk with me.

Let's pretend we're just two people and

You're not better than me.

I'd like to ask you some questions if we can speak honestly.

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What do you feel when you see all the homeless on the street?

Who do you pray for at night before you go to sleep?

What do you feel when you look in the mirror?

Are you proud?

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How do you sleep while the rest of us cry?

How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye?

How do you walk with your head held high?

Can you even look me in the eye

And tell me why?

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Dear Mr. President,

Were you a lonely boy?

Are you a lonely boy?

Are you a lonely boy?

How can you say

No child is left behind?

We're not dumb and we're not blind.

They're all sitting in your cells

While you pave the road to hell.

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What kind of father would take his own daughter's rights away?

And what kind of father might hate his own daughter if she were gay?

I can only imagine what the first lady has to say

You've come a long way from whiskey and cocaine.

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How do you sleep while the rest of us cry?

How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye?

How do you walk with your head held high?

Can you even look me in the eye?

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Let me tell you 'bout hard work

Minimum wage with a baby on the way

Let me tell you 'bout hard work

Rebuilding your house after the bombs took them away

Let me tell you 'bout hard work

Building a bed out of a cardboard box

Let me tell you 'bout hard work

Hard work

Hard work

You don't know nothing 'bout hard work

Hard work

Hard work

Oh

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How do you sleep at night?

How do you walk with your head held high?

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Dear Mr. President,

You'd never take a walk with me.

Would you?

One month...

One month has gone...
One month without you
One month alone
One month without your love

I would love to turn back time
To undo all mistakes we've done
To give us the one last chance
To let us share love

One month has gone...
One month without you
One month alone
One month without your love

I don't want to turn back time
Want to learn from mistakes
To leave past where it has to be
To let us live in future

One month has gone
I found it difficult
And I'm getting lost
I do love you
But I do want to hate you
The thing is... I'm lost!

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My head took the decision.... One day my heart will follow, I wish it will!

Thanks for everything Gab!

Le texte qui suit, je ne l'ai pas écrit seule... Il y a de cela maintenant 4 ans, j'avais énormément de difficultés à m'exprimer. C'est alors qu'un ami m'a fait découvrir l'écriture. Depuis, c'est devenu une maladie incurable que d'écrire. C'est d'ailleurs avec lui que j'ai coécrit ce texte, c'est p-e pas le meilleur, mais je l'affectionne beaucoup. Alors voilà je vous en fait part!

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Cool song is coming

So fasten your seatbelts

Song of wisdom, be part of mine

Now and forever never run away from me

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I'm a singer, a composer, I'm me

You can't do something for this, I'm the one I want

The one who I have choosen to be

Nothing can change it, that's life

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Everything is in my mind

My thoughts, my feelings, what can you do now?

Nothing that no one could imagine

The one with surnatural power will do something, the one I love

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Friendly, now I cannot

Forget everything about me 'cause I won't be able to live with you like a friend

When I see you, I cannot control my feelings

Love will always get over friendship

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Tiger feeling, car agressivity

Get out the way, I'm out of control

Iwant you, I want to be near

'cause when I'm too far from you I'm nothing

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I'm on my way

No idea, I've come to be

The opposite of what I always dreamed of

I'm dreaming, I'll never be that

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I just have to come back to reality

Just have to change my universe

For something realistic

Never become what others want ....

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P.S: Contente de savoir que l'on a évolué et que notre anglais en a fait autant! :o) [Written : 13July03]

Thousand things of you I'll miss..

Sound of your voice
When you tell me … I love you
All the words you used to say
To put me back on road

There are thousand things of you I’ll miss
Kisses and your breath on my skin
Sleeping in your arms ‘till the moment
You bringing me to ecstasy
Thousand things of I’ll miss
I’ll miss

Smile on your face
When I want to be forgiven
Ways you can make me feel special and strong
Ways to bring me back on earth

There are thousand things of you I’ll miss
Kisses and your breath on my skin
Sleeping in your arms ‘till the moment
You bringing me to ecstasy
Thousand things of I’ll miss
I’ll miss

Presence to my life
Shoulder when I’m sad
Touch on my skin
You as an inspiration for me
How stupid you can be

There are thousand things of you I’ll miss
Kisses and your breath on my skin
Sleeping in your arms ‘till the moment
You bringing me to ecstasy
Thousand things of I’ll miss
I’ll miss… I’ll miss you

Le sablier...

Je croyais que c’était ce qu’il y avait de mieux à faire… pour toi, peut-être pour moi aussi. Bien entendu, il m’arrive souvent d’agir avant de réfléchir, à vrai dire, trop souvent. Cette fois n’en était pas une exception, malheureusement. J’ai cru que c’était ce qu’il voulait. Avoir usé de réflexion je lui en aurait fait part et probablement que nous serions encore ensemble à cet instant. Voilà que j’ai agis. Certes une part de lui voulait, mais l’autre non. Il en va de même pour moi. Je croyais que ce serait un soulagement, mais il en ait rien. Est-ce une relation vouée à l’échec? Y a-t-il une issue quelque part? Laissons le temps nous le dire….
Chacun de notre coté, nous voyons à quoi pourrait ressembler notre vie seul. Pour ma part, j’aime bien. Mais je ne pourrais accepter de passer une vie sans lui à mes cotés. Bien entendu, il doit aimer ne plus être avec moi pour l’instant. Il peut vivre tranquille sans me devoir quoique ce soit. Il sait que je n’ai plus le droit de m’inquieter pour lui, pour ce que nous avons été. C’est vrai. Je ne m’inquiete plus, mais je ne peux m’empêcher de l’aimer.
Le temps s’écoule tranquillement. Le sable du sablier a commencé à couler il y a bien peu de temps, mais quand finira-t-il de couler? Je n’en ai aucune idée. J’espère seulement que d’ici là que sa décision sera prise en fonction de son bonheur (Espérant qu’il reste une place pour moi dans ce bonheur…) avant que mon deuil ne soit fait et que je passe à autre chose. Bien sur que je ne pourrai jamais l’oublier… mais tôt ou tard je me ferai une idée de ce qui peut arriver…
Laisse le sablier couler … mais sache qu’il ne coulera pas indéfiniment. Un jour il s’arrêtera, que ton choix soit fait ou non… Je t’aime.

Only loving you...

I love you. Yes I do.

Don't want to loose you.

Want to stay in your arms , in your heart forever.

I love you. Yes I swear.

Don't want to talk about us in past tense.

Want to think of us in future happy together.

I love you. Yes I feel it.

Don't want to leave you.

Want everything to be alright for both.

If it has to happen, it will.

Maybe our destiny will meet again...

I love you. Yes I do ... need you.

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Picture : Summer 2006 in hard time... but we did survive...it should be the same now...it has to!

Big Fight: Me Vs Me

Me...
The one who loves party time
The one who loves to risk her life
The one who loves new and stupid things
The one who follows her feelings
The rebel, too much secure
The one who's not afraid about anything
The one in life
The who knows we got one life, and who lives it!

Me...
The one who loves to stay calm
The one who loves to learn new things
The one who loves librairy and smart things
The one who follows her mind
The insecure
The one who's scare by everything
The one at school
The one who acts for her future

Me and Me... Here are two side of me... You may know only one... the other may be hiding inside. Take time to discover the other... it won't be hiding for a long time.
I'm afraid about the one who will be winning this fight. A mix of those two sides will be the best for me. Would it happen?

Close to end...?

Are we that close to the end? I’m not sure about the answer.
When you came, I was sure things were over. When you came, you were sure things were over. Actually, things are not over! Why? Meant to be? Umm, not sure about it. The thing is we decided to do everything possible to make it work. Will it work? Only time can tell us.
I’m always sorry for my mistakes. Why am I the only one to admit mistakes? Is it so hard for you? Mistakes hurts, but feeling sorry for them is a good thing for the victim. Don’t you know?
I want things to work. Don’t want to loose you even if now, I’m almost ready inside. You are my first true love, the one I’ve never “fake” when I used to tell how I can love you. Three years. Sounds long, really long. Three years. Sounds nice, really nice. After all the things we’ve been threw don’t you believe we’ll stay together for a long time again…? Believe it! I’m doing the best I can to make things work between us, cause you are the one for me. Don’t want to loose you. I want this relation to be infinite. That would be so cool! Time will tell us more…

*Already three years*

Already three years. Do you realise it? Do I realise it? I don’t think I do. Time runs so fast. When we first met, I was the little girl independent who would never thought about being with the same guy for so long… Not finish yet… It still continues! That girl is probably gone now, ‘cause actually I can’t think about being with another guy but you … and I’m a little bit more dependent … maybe too much sometimes you know!

Already three years. Here we are. Three years of how many hard times? Thousand or more… but we’re still together! You know… I did think about split with you many times… I did some and regret. But sometimes I just think about it… ‘Cause I can’t always be strong... After thinking about loosing you… I imagine how my life would be without you… Don’t want to loose you… really! Without you, I feel like nothing!
Already three years. Three years of love. Three years but it’s not over, neither close to be over. … Just can’t stop loving you.

*Three years…imagine* <3

Lost inside...

Don’t know who I am
Lost my way, can’t fin it back
Can’t stop crying while I’m walking
Walking to find what’s lost inside…

What happened
I don’t know
Lost inside… myself
What happened
Do you know
Lost inside… myself

You told me to stay strong
You promise I’ll find my way back
The thing I’ve lost won’t disappear
You told me that thing is hiding inside…

What happened
I don’t know
Lost inside… myself
What happened
Do you know
Lost inside… myself

Yeah, I’ll stay strong, I’ll fight
To find back what’s lost inside
Never crawl, never cry
I’ll find the lost inside…


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I’ve lost something. Hiding inside or not, I’ve lost something, a part of me. You told me it could not fly away from myself, I wish you are right. Asking you to help me, you told me you can’t. Understand, I do. I have to help myself alone. I’m the only one who can save me , by finding the lost inside…. Find it!

Let me run...

You act like alone
Like I wasn't with you
Ignore my feelings
Still making me run

Running for you
Running for love
Running for time with you
Running for life

it may comes faster than what you think...

So let me run...
Far away from here
let me run..
far away from love
let me run...
until I breathless

Nothing has changed
Never stop running for all that stuff
Hope that one day
Things will change

Act like I'm alone
Like you aren't with me
Ignore your feelings
Will make you run

Running for me
Running for love
Running for time with me
Running for life

it may comes faster than what you think...

So let me run...
Far away from here
let me run..
far away from love
let me run...
until I breathless
Yeah today, let me run...
Cause tomorrow will be your turn..

Remember : Your turn to run may comes faster than what you think...

Scared about being drunk…

It’s kind of strange…I’m scared about being drunk… and I love it at the same time. You may think I’m scared about being drunk ‘cause I had alcoolism problems in my family but I don’t. You may also think I did something really bad and I just can’t stop to regret but I don’t. You may finally think that I always get sick when I drink… but I don’t.

Scared… ‘cause I do loose all my sense and I can act really stupid.
… about doing something I’ll regret.
… about driving when I’m drunk. I know I can call you if there’s something but I can’t. So
hard sometimes. Don’t think about taxi, just hate it!
… of your mad eyes looking in my eyes when I’m getting on your nerves! Feeling so sorry
and it’s always getting worst!

Love … the way it makes me feel. I mean the way I can forget all my problems in life, especially
in love.
… when I can appreciate stupid things we’ve never seen before being drunk.
… to have a good laugh for… um… for… no reason!
… to dance and feel free
… last call! :)

Well… I may be scared…but I still love to drink! Don’t be scared…I’ll always be there for a good beer! Promise! Loves to be scared? Maybe… Drink, drunk and drive? Think of it!

Life in time (Part III)

Tomorrow will be my life.

I may think about what tomorrow will be, but I’ll always get wrong. No one can predict what’s going to happen. I may split with my boyfriend, loose my job, even die… No one knows. Sleep without thinking about tomorrow it’s what we have to do even if sometimes it’s getting hard. When I say it’s getting hard I’m talking for the one who love to have control on their life, like I do. Tomorrow is like a thousand surprises…if you are lucky you’ll like most of them! Remember… every action has a reaction, tomorrow may be the reaction.

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-Take it has it comes. You have no control.

-What yo thought may be different from what you'll get.

-Sleep without thinking about tomorrow.

-Thousand surprises, lucky ones?

-Tomorrow is a reaction. Deal with it.

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Future is still something important. In past, I made actions maybe without thinking about consequences, I'm gonna pay tomorrow. In past, I made actions with thinkig about consequences, maybe I'll regret or maybe I'll feel better. No one knows!

Control may kill who you are…

Everyone knows it … control is something really dangerous in life. I’m learning it days after days. It’s not a secret for someone I’m that kind of girl who needs to have control on everything. Everything was all right since I’ve stopped school for this year. Control is flying far away from me and it’s getting really hard for me.
One little year… you may think that there won’t be any important consequences on me… but actually there are some. I’m scare of everything and I can’t live one day without thinking about one year later … that girl who had control on everything and who lived her life has it came is lost.
Control may be something good in someone possession but when this person grew up with control in possession is loosing it, it seems like she’s loosing everything. I lost control, I’m loosing everything. Control was good for me. Now that I have no control… it’s killing who I am day after day.
Control is killing who I am.
I’m lost… will I find it back one day?

Old Quebec trip : )

Last weekend I was in the old city of Quebec for visiting! I never went there until now… Hard to believe I know but this is it! It was really amazing! I was there with my love! Great time we had! So sad we had to come back home! Walking, visiting, being with my love, Great time!! We were lucky… No rain, it was always sunny and sunny… it was really hot there, loved it!
I’ll be honest. I never thought we could have a great time like this. Always fighting for no good reasons, it’s getting hard. Sometimes I’m asking myself: Does it worth it? Having great time like last weekend answers my question, it worth it! I’ll keep fighting for us! Promise!

Travelling makes us forget our little problems. Change our mind, have great time forget the rest!

Never forget it!

86 400 dollars per day

Let’s say there is a magic bank somewhere in this world. When I mean magic it’s because she’s giving you 86 400 dollars per day…but she can stop when she wants. Dollars that won’t be spend in the day won’t stay yours. You have to spend more you can but you can’t put it in a bank or something like this, spend it!
What would you do?
I’m sure you would spend it as fast as you can without leaving a penny! Am I wrong? You would buy some things for you, your friends, your family and maybe you would give money to charity.
This bank does exist! Believe it or not but it really exist. This bank is accessible to everyone. Her name’s TIME!
We have 86 400 seconds per day to live. Life can stop when she wants. Second that won’t be lived will be lost forever.
If you would spend money without leaving a penny why you should live your life without missing a second.
Be careful, we’ve got one life, one chance, live it!

(I read this in “Et si c’était vrai…” from Marc Levy. From the moment I read it, I just can’t stop thinking about it. That’s the reason I shared it with you.)

Thanks for being here…

Few days ago, I was confused…
I thought nothing would have change
I felt like nothing to your eyes
Yesterday was different
When I felt down and cried
You were there for me
There to bring back smile on my face
There to take care of me
There to be sure everything will be okay
I know I may often feel down
These days are so difficult you know…
I know I may ask you many things

Just want to say
Thanks for still being here for me…

Life in time (Part II)

Today is my life.

From that moment writing down here, my life changes. Every word I’m saying I changing something in my life. I’m living for that present moment not for yesterday. Remember what happened in past and try to make no mistake even if I can’t predict consequence of my acts. I may act without reflexion but I’ve got only one life. I have to live this day like if it was the last one. Act and don’t regret. Still forget it or deal with it.

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-Live life day by day.

-Don't think about yesterday or tomorrow.

-Live for me, with no regrets.

-Life is something magical, precious.

-We've got one life. Take everyday as if it was the last one.

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I may have difficulties with this...live day by day. I'm trying really hard to live it like if it was my last one. But past always come back in my mind. I also can't stop thinking about future. I know I have one life and I should live it now. But I want a secure life later too. Keep working hard...

Like Weather...

Like weather
I have my bad and good times
Like weather
I’m unpredictable
Like weather
I can change anytime

Sky is grey
Cloudy in my head
Raining in my heart
Feeling alone, feeling down
Need to stay alone in the dark
To think about what’s happening
Cry until I’m falling in my bed

Like weather
I have my bad and good times
Like weather
I’m unpredictable
Like weather
I can change anytime

Sky is blue
Sunny outside
Sun in my heart
Feeling good, feeling free
Need to hang out with everyone
Have fun anytime, anywhere
Laugh until I’m falling in my bed

Like weather
I have my bad and good times
Like weather
I’m unpredictable
Like weather
I can change anytime

Like weather
Bad and good times follow each other
Like weather

We don’t know when it starts neither when it stops

Thousand of promises...

Promise.

I’ll try as best as I can to trust you every time. It may be hard at beginning but with you by my side I’m sure I will be able to trust you. Just don’t forget to be there when I will need it ‘cause I may be down some days… Promise I’ll trust you.

Promise.

I know you’re not the only thing and person in my life. But you are so important for me… When you’re not around I feel so depress… I just can’t do anything to change my mind. I need to hear your voice, to hear: I love you… I just need you every single day of my life. Promise you’re not the only one.

Promise.

I’ll try to spend more time on my little projects I had put beside for you. I’ll try to spend more time with my friends. I’ll try to let you go without asking myself a thousand of questions. I don’t want to make you feel life you were in jail. I want you to be free… even if I’m scare… Promise you’ll get free.

Promise.

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Promises. Thousand of promises I can do. Thousand of promises I will keep in mind ‘cause I don’t want you to feel bad in this relation. I want to stay with you many years… and I have to work on myself to see this dream to happen. Promise I will keep my promises! I’m here to stay with you 4ever <3

Life in time (Part I)

Yesterday was part of my life.

Past will stay past. We can’t turn back time to change something. Forget it or deal with it. Learn about everything I did even it was great or stupid. I was trying to find who I was in this mess. I went trough many feelings. Feelings were my life, my reason. Without them, I would not be the one I am now. They taught me so many things like I just don’t have to worry about what happened ‘cause tomorrow will be a new day. Yesterday was part of my life. Yesterday still is a part of my life. I can’t erase what happened in this past years. Yesterday makes me grow up and gets me stronger each day. Deal with it.

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-Tomorrow is a new day.

-Stop crying for something happened years ago. Think about now, about future.

-You can't erase something happened, deal with it.

-You learn from every mistakes you made.

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My past is important for me. I will never forget it...just deal with it. I learn many things and each "yesterday" represent something for me. You may find it weird, but it means a lot of memories... good or not (I just don't care).

Almost three years... of love...

When we began together, I would never thought about being with the same person for a long time like this…I mean almost three years(in three months!)! It sounds like eternity to me. I love this kind of eternity. I would never thought about being with the same person for a long time ‘cause I never found true love before being with you. Even if sometimes we’re having hard time, I know you’ll always be there and loving me as I’ll do for you. Even if I seem so confused sometimes you should remember that one thing is clear to me… I love you more than ever and you’re my man! Promise! I never had a doubt on this… Confusion takes part of me when it’s getting hard, when I’m not able to find a solution, when I have to choose between my dreams and you … so hard sometimes… I know you never asked me to tell you this… but I think I’ll feel a bit better when you’ll have read this and maybe it will help you to understand what’s going on inside my confuse head!

Fly me anywhere...

Fly far away from here
Fly me anywhere
Just don’t let me here
Desperate I can be
When you’re not around me

I want to fly with you
You want to fly with me
Let’s fly together
To a place no one knows

Fly to an island
No one used to know
Just you and me
Hands to hands, eyes into eyes
Loving every single moment with you

I want to fly with you
You want to fly with me
Let’s fly together
To a place no one knows

Fly, always flying with you
Don’t want these moments to stop
Fly around the world in your arms
Fly me anywhere you want
As long as I can be with you

I want to fly with you
You want to fly with me
Let’s fly together
To a place no one knows
Let’s fly together

In our love world, fly

Catch my breathe..

Just need a break
To catch my breathe again
Following our story
So hard, so difficult to me

Every time I fall
Loosing my breathe
Need you to catch me
Need your arms around me
Don’t let me fall
Don’t let me fall in pieces...again

Just need a break
To catch my breathe again
Following our story
So hard, so difficult to me

Time to close my eyes
Falling in my dreams
Falling in confusion one more time
Loosing my breathe
Why don’t you come and save me
Before I fall into pieces

Just need a break
To catch my breathe again
Following our story
So hard, so difficult to me
So hard, so difficult to me

So difficult to me…

Cold everywhere, cold anytime...

Cold outside, Cold in my head
Cold outside, Cold in my heart
Cold everywhere, Cold anytime
Always feeling cold, feeling cold

When I feel it’s cold
Something is going wrong
Between us
A magical nightmare
Where I feel…so scared

Cold outside, Cold in my head
Cold outside, Cold in my heart
Cold everywhere, Cold anytime
Always feeling cold, feeling cold

When I feel it’s cold
One touch, one word
I need to feel, to hear
To feel warm with you
Nothing has to be wrong

Cold outside, Cold in my head
Cold outside, Cold in my heart
Cold everywhere, Cold anytime

Always feeling cold, feeling cold

How you make me feel...

When you’re sitting next to me
When you’re sleeping with me
When you’re here with me
How you make me feel

Sitting next to me
You’re my confident
Always there when something’s wrong
Listening every stupid worry I have
You have the words to make me feel good

Sleeping with me
You’re my dream’s “body guard”
No nightmares are close
When I feel your touch on my skin
I feel secure ‘cause I know you’re there to protect me

Here with me
In life, in my thoughts, in my heart
Everywhere I go you’re with me
It makes me feel sure of myself for first time

One thought about you… I’m SuperME!

Burn little candlelight, burn

Burn candlelight, burn
Fire of love
Passion and desire
Looks like a candlelight burning

Always feed her
Always stay alive
Even if she’s close to death
She’s still alive

One day someone will make her breath again
Breath more and more
It may be you…
The one who made her live again
It has to be you…

Burn little candlelight, burn
Someone is feeding you
For staying alive
Staying in passion and desire
Fire of love… burn candlelight, burn

My candlelight’s flame is burning for and because of you… don’t let her die..

She just don't want to die... she wants you to make her live...forever.. <3

Spring Fever!!

Spring fever is taking part of me. I can feel it into my veins. Everything seems to be great, magical. Nothing's wrong. It's the time you find thousand of new projects but not enough time to realise them.

Sun is coming back to wake me up and to make me feel great. I can also wear my sunglasses. So much fun! Driving my car had never been that funny!

Even if with spring fever makes some couple break.... I just feel that spring fever gets me into romantic love... I want to love you more and more.. I Swear!

Spring fever brings new...and new! Nothing old can survive....it's all new stuff! :o) .... and SUMMER!!! Enjoy!

I wish that my projects will ALL be realised after this summer!

Have a great Spring fever...and summer!! :o)

X0 Jess 0X

Each day I’m getting much more depressive…

I thought it was only because of me… I guess I was wrong! Seriously, I was finding motivation alone. Working on my little projects is helping me a lot. Every day, I wake up and I think about what I should do to get my projects better each day. It keeps me smiling! That’s when the problem is coming: YOU! When I finally find a way, when I feel good, you arrive and start to tell me about her and her and her…even if you know how I can hate her! You get me depressive… You are the one who finds a way to put me down when sun shines again. I’m sick of this… I just hate you for it!

Now…confusion’s taking a real part of my head!

When love dominates...

Being dominated by love. No one wishes this to happen to anyone around him or her. But it has to happen to someone. When love dominates everything changes… What I mean is that the person concerned will change everything. Won’t see her friends; forget her dreams, live like the one she loves want to. Friends will probably try to explain what’s happening without succeed. She’ll loose her friends, loose her dreams, and loose her life.

I miss you. I miss time talking and walking at night with you. I miss having fun with you. I miss time helping you when something was going wrong. I miss you.

The one concerned will recognize herself..

Just want to be me...

Head up
Sure of myself
Doing what I want
When I want
Nothing can stop me
Hair in the wind
I can scream my destination

I’m keeping on my liberty
Without her I am nothing at all
Trying to be accept
Know who I am
Just want to be me

In the rain
I can cry
For all the moments
You were wrong
Try to put a smile
On my face
Forget all these moments
And live by my own

I’m keeping on my liberty
Without her I am nothing at all
Trying to be accept
Know who I am
Just want to be me

Just want to be me…

Journée internationale de la femme!

C'est aujourd'hui la journée internationale de la femme!

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Cette année cette journée célèbre son 30e anniversaire.

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Instituée en 1977 par les Nations Unies.

Cette importante journée nous donne l'occasion de célébrer les progrès accomplis dans la promotion des droits des femmes et d'évaluer les difficultés auxquelles elles sont encore confrontées.

Elle nous permet aussi de nous pencher sur les moyens à prendre pour que les femmes et les filles, dans toute leur diversité, atteignent l'égalité et de célébrer le pouvoir collectif des femmes, dans le passé, de nos jours et à l'avenir.

Sur ce, je vous souhaite à toutes une bonne

journée Internationale de la femme!

Getting harder each day...

It’s getting over
She’s hiding her feelings
Too scared by love
No bad intentions
Don’t cry for her
She don’t want you to cry

Getting harder each day
Can’t fight no more
Nothing to do
Hide or run away
Hide or run away
Even if it is easy
Hide or run away, run away

It’s over
She ran away
Ran away from love, not you
No cruel intentions
Change up your mind
She don’t want you to think about her

Getting harder each day
Can’t fight no more
Nothing to do
Hide or run away
Hide or run away
Even if it is easy
Hide or run away, run away

It’s getting harder
Over or not, I’m scare
Only want to live my life
Don’t want to hurt you
Don’t feel sorry for me
Cause our destiny aren’t to be together

Getting harder each day, I’m scare…will it be over?

Does everything can be.... art?

According to dictionary, art is an expression, by the works of a man, of an ideal of beauty.

Today I went to Contemporary Museum in Montreal. Expositions were really nice but strange. So I asked myself … is everything art? One was about building some furniture…and another was about sounds.

Really interesting, I have nothing bad to say. But when art stops? Does it even stop?

Art is everything…

Just think that art is something new, something fresh due to works of a man, not necessary an ideal of beauty. Art is an easy way to express yourself when you get mad, sad, happy, or in love about or with everything in society…

Let’s say art is everything… but it has to bring something new..

Art is transvestism of reality [Pedro Almodovar]

A princess life...

Never do something by your own. Always have someone to do it for you. You don’t even need to ask someone to do it… ‘Cause someone is actually doing it.

Money… that’s not a problem for you. Your parents are there to pay every single thing you want. Even if it’s really expansive and if it’s not necessary. Don’t even think about working.

You have everything you want. You have everyone you want.

You’re not doing something by your own. People are there to take care of you just like if you were a bisque doll.

Let’s say you have an easy life but not necessary the best life. You have everything. You don’t have to work. You can go wherever you want; you can do whatever you want. There’s no problem for you.
No challenge. No experience. Nothing to learn.
Are you missing something?

An easy life. Always have what you want. Everyone’s taking care of you. Everyone’s there for you.

That’s a princess life.

But it is not my life and not the kind of life I want…

Open the door..

So many things are different now. You’ve read all my thoughts I was unable to tell you. You read everything except what’s still in my head…but it is almost the same. Now that you’ve open the door inside of me…you read me... you know me…It’s kind of strange. I feel like it was the first time I fall in love. I love you much more every single day of my life...and I feel like you’re HERE! On earth! Don’t know how to explain it…but I feel for the first time that you’re here with me!
Why does every moment of life isn’t like this week…??

....

Open the door
Open the door inside of me
And you’ll see
So many things you don’t know
About me
Be scare, confuse
Be real
Open the door inside of me
I’ll be there
You’ll see…..

My heart...yours!

These days are so difficult. Can’t imagine myself with you. Can’t imagine myself without you. All I can do is wait. Wait for the moment I’ll find an answer. My parents against you. You against my parents. I’m lost… .My heart is with you. My heart is with them. My heart…. is mine. Don’t know if I’m right or wrong. Don’t care anyway…for now.

These days are so difficult. My mind is confuse…my heart too. I just can’t imagine a life with you but I also can’t imagine one day without you. All I can do is wait. Wait for the moment I’ll find an answer. My parents against you. You against my parents. I’m lost… .My heart is with you. My heart is with them. My heart…. is yours..

Honestly...

There's something going wrong with me...
But I don't know what..
Everynight I'm crying when it comes to sleep
Crying, crying and crying....don't know why
Honestly...there's something wrong
Don't worry...it will be fine
And I will talk to you when times come...
Honestly, don't worry..
Crying because of you?
Crying because of me?
Don't know why but I'm still crying...
Honestly, don't worry.. I love you
Honestly, don't worry.. I love
Honestly, don't worry.. I
Honestly, don't worry..
Honestly, don't
Honestly.

I'll try to be honest with you
But sometimes it's getting hard...
Honestly.

Feelings to feel alive!

Last night, I asked myself: What would life be without feelings? Frustration, sadness, happiness, etc. Feelings represent a big part of our life! I just can’t imagine a life without them!
Love and friendship the most important feelings…for me! As you can see, they lead other feelings ‘cause they all bring frustration, sadness, etc.
Even if sometimes we can be really frustrated about something happened…time goes by ..and we learn about this moment..
Feelings make me realise … I’m alive! I’m someone! You can hate or love some feelings…but you can’t deny that they make you live!

Way down to confusion...

I’m falling down
Way down to confusion
Stay or leave?
Everyday…confusion is taking part of me
Stay or leave?
Love or not?
I want to feel good and free
Without answers to find…
While I’m falling down
Way down to confusion
Take my hands
I want a normal life
And bring me back to life
…………….‘Cause I’m down to confusion
………….I’m down to confusion
……… .Down to confusion
……..To confusion
..Confusion
Bring me back to life!

Easy to talk with...you!

Everything I'm writing new on this blog...I'm thinking about you...I admit it! But...everytime you don't find a sense to do this... I do not have to explain why I'm writing here ...about you or anything else... but I'll do it..

Here's why:

Everytime I would like to talk with you...I'm not finding enough courage to do it, I'm feeling stupid ...so writing here seems to be an easy way to talk with you about many things...

Even if I know that you'll probably....

never read them anyways!

Confusing...

Tonight, I finished working earlier...which means, 8pm! You are finishing at 12:30...4 hours and a half to kill! I first tought about coming back home, to relax having time in my own things, in my own world! So I prepare myself and at 8 pm I went back home. When I arrived...I was not feeling like I would have like... I was missing you..too much! In confusion....I packed all my things and came back to your house...Missing you, is that the only reason? The only thing I know is that I wanted to be HERE! .....10:20 pm... still waiting for you...!!

How to save a life...

Last night..I saw this music video : How to save a life by The Fray! Amazing! I already knew that song but this is the first time I see the video. I have some difficulties to share it with you but I'llfind a way to make it work! Anyway..you can also listen it on The Fray's website...or see their music video on youtube or on television.... I hope you'll enjoy it as I did!

____________________________how to save a life...
--Listen --
______--Hold Still --
______________--Let it go --
_____________________ --Don't be scared of death --
--Talk to someone --
_____________ --Touch --
___________________ --Breathe --
__________________________ --Cry--
______________________________ --Accept --
--Forgive --
______ --Have faith --
_______________ --Surrender --
_________________________ --Release the fear --
--Love --
_____ --Open up--
____________ --Remember --
______________________--Say GoodBye... --

Try to imagine a life without you...

Tonight when you went away to your home...I was alone...alone in my bed..alone with me! You know..it is always bad news when I stay alone... but not this time!

Tonight I tried to imagine my life without you... it was really hard! I don't think I could survive without you. That's when I thought about school... Distance is the word that will exactly describe our relation.. It scares me! But you already know this! Everyone already know this!
But one thing remind! I remember you told me our love was so strong...and that whatever it happens we will stay together. I wish this will be my reality! Cause you are the one I live for..

No bad news! I'm still scare...but thinking about this...made me realize that I should trust you, trust me and to trust us! I'm here to stay with you..and as you would say : You're not going to leave me so easily!

LOVE YOU!

Have you ever been hurt?

Have you ever been hurt by your lover?
Have you ever been hurt by your family?
Have you ever been hurt by your friends?

Oh yeah, I’ve been hurt…by myself
I’ve try to stand up during this time
To never fall...to stay strong

I’ve been hurt by myself
Taking wrong decision
Wrong, so wrong I was
You went far from me
‘Cause I’ve been hurting you
Hurting myself by the same

Have you ever been hurt by your lover?
Have you ever been hurt by your family?
Have you ever been hurt by your friends?
Have you ever been hurt by your decisions?
Have you ever hurt someone?

Miss nights in your arms..

Nights without you are not the same
I can’t feel your touch on my skin
Can’t feel your breath near my neck
Can’t hear you when you’re telling me: Love you!
I miss that time
Time I was sleeping in your arms every night
Why don’t you come next to me?
Why don’t you come sleep with me?
I miss you every night
I’m feeling alone in my bed…
And every time I wake up
I wish it was a nightmare
And to see you next to me
So why don’t you come sleep with me?
Need you tonight...love you!

So scare..

After all the things we’ve been through
I’m still scare about loosing you
Even if you’re telling me that everything will be okay
I’m still scare…
I can’t think about something else
‘Cause I’m too scare about living without you
You’re the one who helped me when I was down
The one who showed me love was something great
The one who forgave all my mistakes
You’re the one and only one for me
I love you more than ever
But I’m still scare…
Scare about distance…not about your love
I need you here with me
Not a thousand miles away from me
I wish I would fall asleep in your arms again
Feel your touch on my skin…your kisses… your breath
I need you … I don’t want to be far from you
Distance…scares me!

Confession

Everytime I close my eyes, the only thing I think about is how I’m loosing my time. I’ve been sitting here for too much time…maybe 5 or 6 months…and I’ll be sitting here for another 5-6 months if I’m not doing something to make it change. I’m loosing time. I don’t have any goal for now… I guess I’m waiting to go back school in September…! If only I could have all the material things I want to realise some projects… Loosing my time... by working, working…what else? I realise I’m not the one I used to be 1 or 2 years ago… and I missed it… Would anyone be nice and kick my ass? I need someone to kick it…really...no kidding! Would you? Anyway… I’ll find my own way…my own goals (Even if it’s in a couple of months…I wish it before) alone or not…So next time I’ll close my eyes…I’ll find out a girl with too much goals, not enough time… promise!

Anyone to kick my ass?

Lost, Confuse, Depress..

I'm lost, I'm confuse
I don't know where I'm going
Am I going to live by my own
Or am I going to become crazy?
I'm lost, I'm confuse
I'm kind of depress
I don't know what to do
Neither what to say or think
I just want to go far from here
Take a break
I'm lost, I'm confuse
Would someone give me answers
Or just help me to feel better?..

Un hiver....sans neige!

C'est bien beau avoir un hiver dans neige... mais dernièrement je me suis demandé... on a beau dire qu'il n'y a pas de neige, que c'est étrange, mais qu'est-ce que vous pensez de tout cela?? Je sais, je sais l'hiver n'est pas terminé...la neige peut arriver à tout moment.. mais jusqu'à présent êtes-vous de ceux qui en sont frustrés ou qui adorent cette situation??

Pour ma part, bien que je n'aime pas me casser la gueule sur de la glace, déneiger mon auto ou la cour... je trouve cela tout de même inquiétant!! Même si cela me fait parfois plaisirde sortir lorsqu'il fait +5 ...un hiver sans neige doit cacher des conséquences à quelque part... D'ailleurs, ce soir en regardant les nouvelles j'ai su qu'un ours n'est pas en hibernation...assez inquiétant!! Anyway! je vous laisse sur des quelques petits trucs que j'ai trouvé sur un hiver sans neige... et si vous croisez un ours...dites vous qu'il a peut-être faim!!! ;o)

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Les avantages d'un Noel sans neige (par Stéphane Laporte)

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Mais faut avoir le moral et essayer de trouver des avantages à un Noël sans neige.

1. La visite n’aura pas besoin d’enlever ses chaussures. Ça va sentir meilleur.

2. Aller fumer dehors quand il fait plus quatre, c’est agréable.

3. La visite restera pas prise dans la neige, comme ça vous êtes certain qu’elle va s’en aller.

4. Si vous aimez pas Noël, vous pouvez vous faire croire que c’est la Saint-Jean.

5. Pour une fois, la ville sera déneigée.

Intégral!

http://www.cyberpresse.ca/article/20061221/CPBLOGUES08/61221090&blogdate=20061221&cacheid=20061221

I'm lost...again!

What am I suppose to think about us?
I don't know where we are going...
Don't really know your feelings...
Don't know if you could to a small effort for me...
Don't know who you really are...
Do I know something about us?
Do you know something about me, about us?
If you do...help me..
'Cause I'm lost.....again!
(Sorry...)

**** BONNE ANNÉE 2007 ****

J'espère que cette année sera superbe pour tous!! Même si de mon côté je l'ai commencé avec un torticolli (c'est comme ça qu'on écrit ça?!?) je sens que cette année sera remplie d'action!! Anyway je vous souhaite qu'elle soit la meilleure à présent mais tout de même la plus plate de celles à venir!! Tention à vous tous!! ;o)