Open the door..

So many things are different now. You’ve read all my thoughts I was unable to tell you. You read everything except what’s still in my head…but it is almost the same. Now that you’ve open the door inside of me…you read me... you know me…It’s kind of strange. I feel like it was the first time I fall in love. I love you much more every single day of my life...and I feel like you’re HERE! On earth! Don’t know how to explain it…but I feel for the first time that you’re here with me!
Why does every moment of life isn’t like this week…??

....

Open the door
Open the door inside of me
And you’ll see
So many things you don’t know
About me
Be scare, confuse
Be real
Open the door inside of me
I’ll be there
You’ll see…..

My heart...yours!

These days are so difficult. Can’t imagine myself with you. Can’t imagine myself without you. All I can do is wait. Wait for the moment I’ll find an answer. My parents against you. You against my parents. I’m lost… .My heart is with you. My heart is with them. My heart…. is mine. Don’t know if I’m right or wrong. Don’t care anyway…for now.

These days are so difficult. My mind is confuse…my heart too. I just can’t imagine a life with you but I also can’t imagine one day without you. All I can do is wait. Wait for the moment I’ll find an answer. My parents against you. You against my parents. I’m lost… .My heart is with you. My heart is with them. My heart…. is yours..

Honestly...

There's something going wrong with me...
But I don't know what..
Everynight I'm crying when it comes to sleep
Crying, crying and crying....don't know why
Honestly...there's something wrong
Don't worry...it will be fine
And I will talk to you when times come...
Honestly, don't worry..
Crying because of you?
Crying because of me?
Don't know why but I'm still crying...
Honestly, don't worry.. I love you
Honestly, don't worry.. I love
Honestly, don't worry.. I
Honestly, don't worry..
Honestly, don't
Honestly.

I'll try to be honest with you
But sometimes it's getting hard...
Honestly.

Feelings to feel alive!

Last night, I asked myself: What would life be without feelings? Frustration, sadness, happiness, etc. Feelings represent a big part of our life! I just can’t imagine a life without them!
Love and friendship the most important feelings…for me! As you can see, they lead other feelings ‘cause they all bring frustration, sadness, etc.
Even if sometimes we can be really frustrated about something happened…time goes by ..and we learn about this moment..
Feelings make me realise … I’m alive! I’m someone! You can hate or love some feelings…but you can’t deny that they make you live!

Way down to confusion...

I’m falling down
Way down to confusion
Stay or leave?
Everyday…confusion is taking part of me
Stay or leave?
Love or not?
I want to feel good and free
Without answers to find…
While I’m falling down
Way down to confusion
Take my hands
I want a normal life
And bring me back to life
…………….‘Cause I’m down to confusion
………….I’m down to confusion
……… .Down to confusion
……..To confusion
..Confusion
Bring me back to life!

Easy to talk with...you!

Everything I'm writing new on this blog...I'm thinking about you...I admit it! But...everytime you don't find a sense to do this... I do not have to explain why I'm writing here ...about you or anything else... but I'll do it..

Here's why:

Everytime I would like to talk with you...I'm not finding enough courage to do it, I'm feeling stupid ...so writing here seems to be an easy way to talk with you about many things...

Even if I know that you'll probably....

never read them anyways!

Confusing...

Tonight, I finished working earlier...which means, 8pm! You are finishing at 12:30...4 hours and a half to kill! I first tought about coming back home, to relax having time in my own things, in my own world! So I prepare myself and at 8 pm I went back home. When I arrived...I was not feeling like I would have like... I was missing you..too much! In confusion....I packed all my things and came back to your house...Missing you, is that the only reason? The only thing I know is that I wanted to be HERE! .....10:20 pm... still waiting for you...!!

How to save a life...

Last night..I saw this music video : How to save a life by The Fray! Amazing! I already knew that song but this is the first time I see the video. I have some difficulties to share it with you but I'llfind a way to make it work! Anyway..you can also listen it on The Fray's website...or see their music video on youtube or on television.... I hope you'll enjoy it as I did!

____________________________how to save a life...
--Listen --
______--Hold Still --
______________--Let it go --
_____________________ --Don't be scared of death --
--Talk to someone --
_____________ --Touch --
___________________ --Breathe --
__________________________ --Cry--
______________________________ --Accept --
--Forgive --
______ --Have faith --
_______________ --Surrender --
_________________________ --Release the fear --
--Love --
_____ --Open up--
____________ --Remember --
______________________--Say GoodBye... --

Try to imagine a life without you...

Tonight when you went away to your home...I was alone...alone in my bed..alone with me! You know..it is always bad news when I stay alone... but not this time!

Tonight I tried to imagine my life without you... it was really hard! I don't think I could survive without you. That's when I thought about school... Distance is the word that will exactly describe our relation.. It scares me! But you already know this! Everyone already know this!
But one thing remind! I remember you told me our love was so strong...and that whatever it happens we will stay together. I wish this will be my reality! Cause you are the one I live for..

No bad news! I'm still scare...but thinking about this...made me realize that I should trust you, trust me and to trust us! I'm here to stay with you..and as you would say : You're not going to leave me so easily!

LOVE YOU!

Have you ever been hurt?

Have you ever been hurt by your lover?
Have you ever been hurt by your family?
Have you ever been hurt by your friends?

Oh yeah, I’ve been hurt…by myself
I’ve try to stand up during this time
To never fall...to stay strong

I’ve been hurt by myself
Taking wrong decision
Wrong, so wrong I was
You went far from me
‘Cause I’ve been hurting you
Hurting myself by the same

Have you ever been hurt by your lover?
Have you ever been hurt by your family?
Have you ever been hurt by your friends?
Have you ever been hurt by your decisions?
Have you ever hurt someone?

Miss nights in your arms..

Nights without you are not the same
I can’t feel your touch on my skin
Can’t feel your breath near my neck
Can’t hear you when you’re telling me: Love you!
I miss that time
Time I was sleeping in your arms every night
Why don’t you come next to me?
Why don’t you come sleep with me?
I miss you every night
I’m feeling alone in my bed…
And every time I wake up
I wish it was a nightmare
And to see you next to me
So why don’t you come sleep with me?
Need you tonight...love you!